Last week, I was away at an annual conference for Hudson Institute trained coaches. It is a favorite gathering of mine each year because of the high caliber of speakers and presentations, as well as, for the opportunity it affords me to reconnect to my fellow Hudson coaches - a community I really enjoy!
It is a five-day, non-stop, all-"on" trip for me. I give myself almost no downtime, except to sleep, because I don't want to miss any of it! Not the learning, not the socializing, not the happy hours, not the dinners with my friends, not the late-night, in-depth (as in deeeeeep) discussions about life and people that coaches can't help but to engage in.
It's like drinking from a 16-hour fire hydrant, every day, for 4 days!
So, by the time the conference ends and I'm back in my own quiet, peaceful home with my introvert, artist Marriage Equivalent and our two cats, I'm fully quenched, but totally exhausted.
And then it's Monday.
And Monday is a work day. Not to mention that I have SO MANY ideas about stuff I want to do, read, try, buy, and implement, from all that learning and input, that I start to feel overwhelmed...and I feel like I'm behind before I've even begun! I also have no food in the house from being away, laundry to do from the trip, etcetera, etcetera. Those of you who do all this with kids...well, you are nothing short of amazing!
But here's the thing, I'm exhausted and I know I need a break so that the fire hydrant of learning and ideas can seep in.
I know this, but I fight it.
I feel like I "should" be getting going with my week and working down my list. Instead I'm lingering over my breakfast and getting lost in distractions, all the while feeling the pangs of anxiety and guilt over not already being done with about a thousand things.
What I end up doing is hanging out in the in-between place - not really doing and not really being, so time just marches by with very little sense of satisfaction either way. Uck!
And, here is where I fell out of consciousness and into unconsciousness.
Have you ever done this? Not listened to what your heart is really telling you and tried to override it with your mind? It's a losing battle. The heart always wins.
I may do a thousand things, but they aren't any good. They lack my full attention and intention.
The same goes for resting. If I don't fully embrace my rest and do it with intention, that window of time closes and I don't feel any more rested. I feel worse because I have squandered it.
Now, if only I could figure out a way to remember this so I didn't have to keep learning it!
When you have a choice about how to use your time - to rest or to do, to play or to work, to sleep or to get going, to socialize or to be alone - make a conscious choice. Look inside yourself for the truth about what you really want, or are truly going to support, and honor that in your actions and your intent.
Be Your Best Success!
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